Blue sunday coming on strong right now, don't feel like feeling anything. Maybe that is how it should be some days, making me long for my book which I paint so much emotions in, forgetting so often cause I don't have time to sit down and drown in myself. I am supposed to have people come over tomorrow but can't stand the thought of anyone coming over at all. Just want to be alone with someone that just want to hold me and stroke their fingers through my hair while I'm lying on their lap. But then again, that is what I did last sunday.