Wednesday, 23 January 2013

Me on a Tuesday evening

Kinda funny, but this is the perfect selfportrait right now. It is a picture of my mind and thougts mixed together.

Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Once I was superskinny and had long flowy hair. I sometimes miss those days.

Monday, 14 January 2013

This is a long one you guys

My goal is to look like this again. 

I miss being seventeen. I just wish I had some brains while I were there.
It sucks to be older and look at all the mistakes you did when you were younger, and not being able to understand them until it's like... A million years too late cause you're like... Old.
I know I'm just a youngster still, but you know, that feeling of getting older just kreeps up more and more. And babies and boyfriends and marriage and all that stuff just start getting so goddamn close up on me. And one part is screaming "Hells NO, keep that uterous of mine unbefruited!", but another part of me is just kicking for a baby in my belly and a man that will be there for ever and ever and wants to marry me and buy a house with me somewhere nice. 

And then there is this third feeling that is way to scary...
Of all the goals I want to achieve before I die. And also all the goals I want to do before kids. How on earth am I gonna make them happen within the next few years I've got before I'm getting too old for kids. I mean, come on, I don't want to be a fourty-year-old babymaker. Hell, I don't feel like being a thirty-year-old one either! But I sure as hell don't want kids the next couple of years! And that's where the math starts failing. Gooood, I am SO gonna be one of those moms that just get unintentionally preggers with some bloke I puked all over during a failure intercourse. I bet he won't even have curls and the baby will be like... something that looks like it came out of a box and patched together all wrong. 

NO I am not a dramaqueen, what is wrong with you! 

Honestly though... I'm getting old.
And my ex is on his third relationship now post-me, and I'm like... still single. And it actually sucks, cause you sort of always want to be the winner in the ex-game and be the first one with someone new and more shiny. And he's like slutting himself through them all. While I'm slutting myself through random guys that don't even bother texting back. This is life y'all! You gotta love it sometimes! 

Ps I am actually in a great mood right now, so this is not some kind of emo-angry-letter to life and our holy mother earth that has created us women so unfairly menstrual and uterous-al.

OH and ps ps I am sooo procastrinating right now, so that I don't have to do the things I have to do, which is only boring stuff.

Sunday, 6 January 2013

Gotta get me a better scanner

The downside of buying the cheepest stuff (granted, I did buy the machine for the printer. The scanner was just something that came attached).

Friday, 4 January 2013


Inspired by these. Am doing a project right now which is far far far from what I've done before. But still it's pretty close to my heart, doing everything I love in one place. I hope this will be something I can show you, cause I am pretty prepped about it. But since there is nudity in them, it is the model that is the boss of this, which is pretty obvious. But I am in love with everything this project brings. Sorry for all the secretive talk here. But these inspirational pictures at least give an idea of it all. Pictures from Audrey Kawasaki and Gustav Klimt.

And while I'm working, I'm listening to this song
College – A Real Hero