Saturday, 26 June 2010


OH me oh my oh aaaaiiy!
I'm watching some michael jackson tribute-movie. And some kids doing the bad musicvideo. And they are soooo cute!!!!! aaaaaw!

I look really emo on these pictures. Hahahaha! Awesome! Emo-Milla!

Friday, 25 June 2010

Red and/or Brown

One part of me wants to be dark again. Almost black! And another part of me wants to continue being red. This is so hard! I know that if I color my hair dark again, then it'll take mooonths to be red again (I'm still de-brown-ing myself after that last time for about a year ago). And I know I want to become red again after being dark brown for a month or two. But still... It's so tempting... Oh darn it!

It's so random, it's random!

This is my desktop-picture rigth now.

This is how I want to look this summer.

That is like, so totally me and Karianne seven/eight years ago.

This is how I hope my future daughter will look like.

This is just... awesome...

These pictures are randoms taken from the world wide web. I'm sorry, but I don't have any sources...

Thursday, 24 June 2010


This post started out as a post on how stupid humans are. I erased it all and will just write:

Hello. I like chocolate and has a terrible garlic bread-breath right now. Screw garlic-breath. It's terrible!


Sunday, 20 June 2010

Playing with the Universe

I had a dream last night about the most amazing shoot ever. So this week I'll really go into my alien-themed serie and actually get some results! So today I've been testing out stuff on old pictures I've taken just to see if my idea really can work. And I think it can. I believe in it!!

Saturday, 19 June 2010

I want

 ...a tattoo like this. I won't do it though, but oh, it sure looks nice!

Rebloging is SO cool!

This is just as if I should have written it myself! Haha I love it! Whomever wrote this - GO YOU!

Totally Random

It's amazing what you can do with makeup and photoshop, you guys! It's a old picture, but I figured I wanted to photoswop it a bit cause it was so obvious it had to be done. Aaaand because I'm a teeny tiny bit bored. Just a tiny one. Teehee I feel like a sheep, doing what everyone else does. 
But OH OH OH!!! I don't care ♥

P.s. Grrrr I'm a monster

Friday, 18 June 2010

Hello Gel-o!

I admit it. I am -right now- bored. But don't get me wrong, I sort of enjoy it. Since well, I do get time to do stuff I don't usually make time to do. Like right now, I'm sewing on my Daft Punk-top again. But I do hope I get a job soon. Or more like another job (I sorta have two already). One day I'm gonna be so rich that I don't need to work. That is my plan!

And I hope that the weather soon will get better, cause I have a photoshoot-idea involving lots of water and a river/sea (depends on where I'll find the location). And of course some poor girl splashing in the middle of it all. ("poor girl" because of the -mildly put- cold water here in Norway). Looking forward to it. Being behind the camera and not in front that is. Moahahahah!

Well, see ya! I'm going back to sewing and probably some Buffy-watching. Damn, there is a lot of seasons to go through! Oh woops, look at that! I found disney channel. I guess Buffy can wait a little. Kidding. sorta...

Wednesday, 16 June 2010

She is the slayer-powpow

Selfportrait some nights ago. And I can't wait to get my own internet so I can get a hold the first episode of True Blood season 3. Buffy is all great and stuff and - oh boy that Angel sure is handsome - but I feel like something is missing in my life. And that is, yes, without doubt the one and only... Eric. Yummy Yummy in my tummy and Growl, baby! 

Self a couple of nights ago. Oh indeed Yeah Booya!

Monday, 14 June 2010

I want to do so much more

Than any of you ever have done. Normal is not enough. Average is an insult. 
What I do now is nothing. It's just preperations and Moderations. I'm not after something that's already been done.
I'm not after happily ever after or acceptance. I'm not after what everyone else wants or needs. I don't do it for you, for them, for anyone. else. than. me. I like what I like. Clichés, monsters, childish behaviour, men and women. I like that people are stupid. I like watching them watching nothing. I like to see that people have no clue on what's going on around them. They just live. But they have no clue on what they're doing, cause they're blind.
I feel I'm not one of them. I'm not one of the people. I see through them. I think differently. Instead of being offended I watch. Instead of being sad I watch. Instead of taking action-I watch. Cause I learn so much more from it, I learn so much more about you. I see your mistakes, I take them and I use them in my silence.

My life is no life any longer. Not like yours. I don't have anything that's made normal. Everything is selfmade. Cause everything that was society-model-built around me is now tore apart. No family No normality No fucking life-long clichés. I am me - building me, my surroundings. And the funny part is: I am so FUCKING happy for it! THANK YOU for showing me that nothing is safe, that nothing is real. Thank you for showing me-underlining it for me- that the life we made for ourselves are nothing anymore. My life is not my life anymore. It is so much more. By tearing the walls down, you showed me the world outside. Wide open, welcoming me to take charge and build something new, something for myself.

And for all of you out there only thinking about falling in love: It means nothing. It is nothing. The romantic relationship between two people are made out of nothing. It means nothing. And you can't see that unless you've experienced that other type of love. The one you get from your family. The one I got from my family. But then again. My family aint like yours. My family is made from scratch by me. I made it - I decided who's a part of it. Cause it is my family. No mum, dad, and a brother and sister. It is whomever I want it to be. It is the ones I love - the ones I truly love. The rest are just persons, people not worth mentioning or worth speaking with. They are ghosts. Still living around me but not worth my time.

Thank you for clearing everything out for me. I am forever grateful for your betrayal. You might think you betrayed my mother the most, but she was blind from the love she had for you. I carried the hope for the both of us. And you made the mistake of breaking the promise you had to me. You are lucky, I am not your blood. I won't hurt you like I am hurting him. Cause you're not worth it. And I don't have time. I am busy working with me, becoming more than anyone ever will be. And that is not smug, not ugly and not self-loving. Whomever not thinking like that has lost the sight of life. It's not about money, not about love, not about what's around you, not about truth. It is about yourself. About myself. If I believe it, it's true.

Thank you. I am much wiser now than what I was.

And I want to look like her

Lily -oh- Cole

Wednesday, 9 June 2010

My place so far

This is my street. Pretty, right?

When I got indoors yesterday, this sign met me. It says "welcome home Camilla!" 
My roomie is so cute!

This is our livingroom for now. We're missing a tv and some other stuff.
This is what meets you when you walk in to my room. A huuuuge window! I look forward to sit in it and watch all my new neighbours.

My shoes. Sigh.
This is the start of my picture-project. When I'm finished, It'll be a big square of pretty and cute pictures of various sorts. I have a feeling there will be a card or two hanging there soon as well (thank you, Charlotte, I love every card I get from you!)


Remember me? I'm moving, working, taking pictures and moving and working and moving some more these days. So I'm pretty busy. But my place (wow, strange to say "my place") is starting to take form and it's looking pretty good! I think I'll be happy living there the next year (or two). I'll post some pictures soon. I just have to... bother to put them over to the computer, ehe.

Wednesday, 2 June 2010

Halfway there

Well, the pictures are done and the booklet is printed. 
I must admit, I couldn't make it more cheesy than what I've done - with the front page and text (I won't publish it. I do have some self-respect to maintain). But I don't take it so seriously. It's summer ffs!! And now I only have one thing left for this year of school, and that is to make a "musicvideo" of the pictures I took and some stop-motion-stuff inbetween. And, yes, it do look like it's a tribute-movie to someone who has died. Haha, I'm laughing my -- off!
One bad thing about eating garlic bread is that you get bad breath for ages afterwards.


I've got it stuck on my mind! She's brilliant. 
From now on, I'll be walking around with friggin' teacups and pirate(-ish) hats as well! 


Tuesday, 1 June 2010

Sunny Bunny

After a two-hour (and two thousand-pic) -photoshoot with Kai the guitarist, I met Karianne. And we went to a park and enjoyed the sun for an hour before we went back to work. 
And today it is only one week (!!!) 'till I'm moving! How strange that'll be. But I am looking forward to decorate the place. I have so many ideas!