Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Summer part One





Some pictures from the weekend with visit from my family up in Trondheim.
Now it's pack-all-I-can-manage before I'm leaving Norway for two weeks in Thailand.
So goddamn excited, feels like I haven't had a vay-cay like ever. 
(I even bought a underwater-bag, so look out for fun-pics everybody!)

Monday, 7 July 2014

Window



So I ended up taking some reflected selfies - my secret favourite actually. 
I love in-the-window-at-night-selfies. The colours of a night-lit street is so magical. 

Monday, 23 June 2014

Something struck me today.
I've never been me. Or you know, the me I am now.
We are always changing - down to the molecuels and regenerating of hair and skin and nails and all that stuff - we all know that one. But I am changing so fast these days. It is like my mind is going through a mindblowing big teenager-moment which, instead of using five-ish years, goes through it all within six months and I am transitioning into an adult. Everything that used to be about insecurity, bodyissues and finding out the meaning of life is changed. It's all gone in a twisting but still existing way. I'm still insecure, but I've gotten a ton of new security none the less. I dare more, I don't care if I screw up, I move faster and for once feel like I am moving towards a goal (if only I knew what the goal was, but that sort of doesn't matter either). I still have bodyissues, come on who will ever not have one of those. But it still is changed, I care less, I love myself more. When my fingers glide over the different bodyparts with various amount of stretchmarks and cellulite, I see it with other eyes. I don't see them as flaws, I see them as part of me - and that is strangely beautiful.
Oh and when it comes to finding the meaning of life - well I think I might be kinda over it for this time. It's not like I've lost the will to live or anything, no not even the slightest. No I'm just more relaxed about it. Maybe it has something to do with me finding a job I like and feel relaxed in. I have a firm belief that it all comes down to the job. It is the place you hang out about 50% of your awake state. It's only logical that that place should be somewhere you feel good. It gives me more energy, which then again gives me new ideas towards photography. And since I'm not in any rush of getting out of there, I can do the transition into photographer life in the pace I need it to go - instead of a desperate quickest-possible-way which surely will fail no matter what since I don't have a connection-wealthy father or any money or clue. And besides, how many photographers are doing brilliant and successfull with only photography in the age of 24. Few.

My life is different. I've started surfing food-articles and recipies instead of blogs and tumblrs. I shop antique chairs and drool over marble tables and plan the perfect bathroom instead of buying high heels not possible to walk in.
I want to get rid of my whole wardrobe and get only ten basic outfits that are expensive but so greatly tailored it'll hold for my grandchildren to wear. I use creams and lotions twice a day, I eat fruits like I used to eat snickers, I absolutely love red onion (seriously though, what is that all about) and I clean whenever it is needed instead of that weekly must-have-cleaning-day.
Oh and yeah I've experienced love for the first time ever, so that has changed me monumentally as well. Not any resipricated love, but that was never the thing I needed in the first place. I needed to get faith in me being able to feel and believe it existed. Which I now do, and I see everything so clearly, so diferently, I am someone else and I love her so much. He might have said no (which never was a question really) but that is okay in every way possible. I feel so incredibly good because just by being in my life he showed me me. And I feel so great now cause I can look at any man and see a future I never could before.
I am indeed changing and it is the biggest and quickest change I've had so far. I think is the sign that I am becoming an adult. Soon-to-be-24-year-old adult. And I am in love with it like I've never been in love with anything before.

One saturday in June


One saturday in June we downloaded a drinking-game-app, got drunk, danced to pussycatdolls and went out to drink and dance some more at our favourite place. I love that she's here, my world is perfect.

Saturday, 14 June 2014

Alavi by Mahshid Alavi


So finally I am allowed to post the pictures I took for my gorgeous and talented friend Mahshid Alavi. She goes to a fashion-school here in Oslo and needed photos of her graduation-line. The clothes are amazing and I can't believe she managed to make this - imagine being so talented! 
I've posted all the photos on my photo-blog (trying to keep my personal blog personal and have another one for the jobs you kno). 

Check them out you guys! 

I feel okay

It's not like I'm jumping out of glee from watching the pictures of them two together, kissing, holding hands, looking like the most perfect morphed-into-eachother-couple ever. No of course not, there is a reason I've hidden him from my Facebook newsfeed.
No that's not the part I am okay with. I'm okay with the feeling that gets me when I see him. I love him, amazing how this feeling is, I mean I've never really had it. So it is so exciting just to feel it, just to bask in it's glory. You know, the way you explore something entirely new, something you thought was a feeling you never were to feel or understand. He is happy with her, she is gorgeous - so is he. He looks genuinely happy with her. And I love him so much I goddamn don't even feel jealous. Or yeah sure, I picture myself next to him instead of her and that feels better - but I'm not jealous in the usual "oh my god, she's such a whore, I'm so much cooler than her, he's an idiot for not seeing it". No I'm not at all. I feel happy. For him. And I feel happy for me, for feeling this way. For finally - FINALLY - feeling so much for someone you actually genuinely want them to be happy before anything else. I've never felt this way. Never understood it, never seen it. And I know I will be okay because I've opened up a door I didn't thing existed earlier. I'm on my way to find someone for me, and I weren't ready for it earlier. Hell, I wasn't really ready for it when I was in a relationship for two years either. But that's a whole other story, and all about teenager thinking and way of behaving. 

I am okay. Because I feel okay when I look at pictures of him, of them. It is okay now. Let the next one come, cause I am ready to feel that feeling he gave me again. Hell, maybe I'm already growing on something similar already. Or maybe it's just the warmth from the sun that's finally back.



Let's round up this post with all the bachelors I surely wouldn't say no to evvur.





Thursday, 29 May 2014


Me and my friend went to the botanic garden next to my apartment. So hot!

Thursday, 15 May 2014


Did a small serie together with Synne one sunday.



Saturday, 3 May 2014


I'm kinda halfdrunk and at home cause it wasn't supposed to be a drunken night out, just a tiny concert but this chick hasn't been out in fucking three months now, and the tolerance is bound to fail me. 

Must admit though, I miss being drunk, kissing people, dancing like I'm on some sort of good trip, being a total bitch to everyone that's bumping into me and not caring about anything other than being right here right now, drunk as a skunk and happy because I am able to do so.

Wednesday, 30 April 2014

Saturday, 5 April 2014

Blood & Champagne

So I'm frequently at this tumblr called Blood&Champagne, and it's all about interior. And since I'm getting older by the minute (and really feelin' it, twentyfour looks like being the year you start feeling the old-gene kick in), it is one of my favourite things to do; checking out interior-blogs and figuring out how my future apartment will look like (Yeah. Apartment. I'm not much of a house-gal).

Seriously though, that bathroom scene is THIGHT! I have already checked out the prices for me doing it, even though I'm not even started on the savings for the actual apartment. It's gonna be pricey, but hotdarn dingaling, it sure looks like a place I will cry of sheer happiness for being in. Yeah. That's right. Oh and also, do sooo want to have a brick wall in my future livingroom. I first saw it in P.s. I love you (the movie, dumb dumb) and it was love at first sight. Sigh.
So I better start werkin' it and savin' up sum douh. Cuz imma needa whole lotta ca$h fo this mofo.
I'm out (and don't know why I started on that G-talk).














2013.04.04


Another preview of what's going on these days. Have so much going on, I'm so excited for the future! 
Collaborations, work - doing stuff I already see myself grow a thousand times on. This feeling is priceless; I might not "be there" just yet, but you know what, I am in no rush no longer. That is why I love reading Vogue. Cause absolutely every photographer portraid in the magazine are never under the age of type thirty. And that calms me so incredibly down, cause I am only twentyfour, I still have many years to develop and climb my way up. And though I may not earn that much money on what I'm doing these days, I certainly can feel my beginning on a climb. Just the feeling of doing something and seeing my own growth into the fashion industry makes it all worth it.

I should start writing ideas and collaborations down, it's starting to get pretty messy. I love it.