I've been in New York for the last week! Will totally post pictures as soon as I'm in the mood to edit. Am having some sort of stop-up with the photography lately. Everything is harder to get done and I haven't been looking for inspiration in months (something which I did every day).
Something needs to change and until I figure out what, I'll be in this sort of blank space hiatus.
This is it you guys! My very first publication! I am so excited, this is such a huge dream for me!
All those days were I worked my ass off, working at my paid job for 6 full days and then to get home saturday night, go to bed and get up early on my one day off to work 14 hours on a photoshoot and just goddamn cry my eyes out of exhaustion afterwards. But it is worth it, you see. Not giving up after months like this is what diferiances one from the ones that doesn't manage. I've been thinking a lot lately about the sentence "it will be tough", which was a daily sentence at school. Whenever we had a lecture, that sentence always came up, and it always sounded so far away. My 7-days-a-week-working-200%-tough is still not the toughest, I am certain it will get harder. But that is where it all works out. Hard work pays off. My work pays off.
And even though an internet magazine with no profit isn't the biggest of deals, it still is a big deal to me. Cause it is a start, and it is a first step into a world I've been dreaming of being a part of since I can remember.
Hola at ya 10 year old me, sitting home alone, crocheting and dreaming of being a cool fashion artist. You might not have ended up as a designer as you first set up to (just... too much sewing you guys...), but this is a darn good second place.
So without any more rambling on about unimportant things that are so important to me, here it is, my first publication!
This was my first sunday with absolutely no plans whatsoever. I was out partying last night, and on my walk home I started thinking about the next day as I always do, going through every plan and how to do them and when. And I realised I had nothing to do! Not even a plan to hang out with anyone. I could sleep as long as I wanted, do whatever I wanted, hell I could even lie in bed all day if I felt like it! So today was the first day in way too long that I felt relaxed enough to do selfportraits (I'm really lazy so for me to bother getting the camera up to take selfies on some freetime, I ought to be pret-ty damn bored).
I'm really trying to get the editing without total blacks or whites, but just the middle-tones you know (such a bad sentence, yes I see it myself). It's a lot harder than what it looks like, finding the balance between no blacks/whites and still not getting a faded kind of picture. Oh yeah and also finding the right balance of color to make it natural, but still pop out and look just a tad bit "magical". The struggles of a photographer you guys!